Thursday, November 29, 2012

You can see, but mustn't touch

privacy (Photo credit: Sean MacEntee)

After what seemed like eternity, she finally unveiled her face,
and the darkness was forgotten, though blinded by sun's rays,
I could hardly make out the outlines, the freckles, the age,
time has flown so quickly, like rats in a maze,
we kept circling and avoiding, dreading the meet,
not knowing what to say, how to eventually greet,
for the one who was closest is a stranger now,
not even sure if to shake hands or to respectfully bow,
or to hug and cry ones heart out - that's now tired and forlorn,
but how to hug a profile photo, is a puzzle- a thorn,
that strikes deep in your heart, you can't even 'like',
due to strange privacy settings, you can 'share', but is that right?
you can't 'comment' - so perhaps at least on this count she cares,
that you can look, but can't touch, a punishment of sorts for your dares?
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Tuesday, July 24, 2012

The Fool- XII

This is a poem spread across multiple pages. Please read in order. Please click on links below to read the earlier passages from the poem.

The Fool - I.
The Fool - II.
The Fool - III.
The Fool - IV.
The Fool - V.
The Fool - VI.
The Fool - VII.
The Fool - VIII.
The Fool - IX.
The Fool - X.
The Fool - XI. 

But isn’t life already empty, and that too as of now,
Who tackles the ‘why’ questions, only those of ‘how’
How to get the Grail, how to make that first move;
How to get involved in the quest, how to again prove,
How to start and last a journey- without aim or sight,
How to couch one’s failures as a fight for right.
How to please the king, how to heal the wounds,
Not of king- but self- How to outgrow Love’s boons,
For Love had protected and Love had scorned,
There are scars running deep, and skin that’s scorched,
How to be One with the quest, How to be The One of the quest
And by losing one’s identity, how one can finally rest
The fire that was burning – these are questions on fool’s mind,
But not asking the ‘why’ questions, is not a degree error, it’s an error of kind.

For you may know the roads to riches,
 and you may know just how to lie,
And you may know just how to touch her,
and you may know just how to cry,
But if you don’t know why you are lying,
and have no clues why you cry
You may as well be a Fool and keep vying,
She’ll leave you for the other guy,
For its not what you say that matters,
And how you say it, hardly counts,
what she cares for is ‘why’ you said it,
you may say I love you, but if to her it sounds,
a pretext to get cozy, and not the heart’s final surrender
you may as well forget her, and join the plunder.

The plunder of the quest where the whys are replaced by the hows
You are so occupied with the journey, you lose sight of the house,
That should have been your end goal, something to return to after the quest
A place one can call home, a place where one can finally rest
But all you care for now is how to leave loves shadow behind
And from ashes rise to victory, a phoenix on the climb
How to reinvent yourself- all you care it to win,  
What purpose the Grail serves, is to you a bit dim.
Why Grail, Why Quests, why kings, why wounds,
Why think of oneself as divine like Suns and Moons,
Why not satisfied with a humdrum life, a wife,
Why needs for affairs, why romance and to be strife,
Why the first step, why the last, why the  desire to be the Key,
The fool desperately needs to ask the question – why Me?

Why it’s up to the fool to end the quest
What crime has he committed, at best,
His ignorance and lack of guile may suggest
He’s upto the task, that’s no excuse, lest
From now onwards every fool be crucified
And in the quests of kings, shamelessly sacrificed
He may be capable of ending the quest,
For quests can be ended only in jest,
Anyone serious and focused on winning
Will only against the tide be swimming
By pitting against millions who want to win
The knights make the quests end look grim.
Only a fool with a mocking disdain of losing,
Can make everyone a winner, and the quest be losing.

So we agree why the Fool should take that step,
Only he can end the quest, make us all hap,
And we can bet our lives, that the Fool he is,
He won’t ask the question, why him, not us,
Let him do for us, what we should do for ourselves,
Losing pawns is Ok in a battle of Knights and Ewe,
Why did he ever love; why love cast its spell strong              
Now hiding from cupids arrow, he is in our command
He has to overcome the pain, if he has to love anew,
He has to forget the many and focus on few
The few knight exemplars that are awed and proud,
And for now let the sun hide behind the cloud
Let this quest be ended, let the Grail be sought,
Today if need be, his soul be bought!

In a Faustian deal to cope with loves stings and arrows,
Let’s get the Fool on our side- ready to go to gallows,
And eager for quest, believing it will liberate his soul,
Lets turn him into a hero, or at least make him bold,
To face his fate , that was not chosen by him,
But to take that first step, we have to stroke his whim
Only by happenstance can a Fool start a journey so fraught
Even if we, the devils, have his soul negotiated and bought.
We must take precautions lest he hear a whimper or the soul’s cry
For in a moment of insight, if he asks the question why,
Why trade his soul for pain, or for love or for gain,
Why engage in the quest, when the end is simple and plain,
In that asking of why, we may lose our savior for good,
But if the fool asks why- we don’t know- he keeps that under hood.

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Tuesday, March 13, 2012

The Fool -XI

This is a poem spread across multiple pages. Please read in order. Please click on links below to read the earlier passages from the poem.

The Fool - I.
The Fool - II.
The Fool - III.
The Fool - IV.
The Fool - V.
The Fool - VI.
The Fool - VII.
The Fool - VIII.
The Fool - IX.
The Fool - X.

Can one dump a hero, who’s also in Love?
A Fool who suffers – who’s hand–in-glove
In making his own fate – in crafting his fall
Who thinks that by failing, he’ll appear 6 feet’s tall.
Someone masochistic- preferring Love’s sting
Over pleasures more carnal-over Solomon’s ring
Neither wisdom he seeks nor the glory of winning
But falls, trials, tribulations and mere satisfaction of running
In the Quest that mattered, for Love that was true
Even if it means being mocked on – and a life that’s blue.
He finds solace in suffering, there is a grace in falling hard
At least he’s not living a half life- he’s giving all he’s got
And if all his love is not enough, to sail him through this night
He may as well leave the quest for others; it’s not a worthy fight.

Not worthy of him- not what he brings to the table,
For its not the fool’s mission to win- he’s equally able
To concede defeat- what he aims is a bit higher
To end the Quest for once and all- is his heart’s desire
For he knows there will be others, who will be equally moved
By the power of Love and eager to make one’s life doomed
Becoming a part of the quest, that may not be their own
But with each fools failing, more seeds are sown;
Seeds of determination, to prove Love’s triumph
That there is value in suffering, courage in mere trying.
To win is all that matters, to a person who is wise
There are cost and benefits, and accordingly one decides
Thank god our Fool is stupid, has a limited vision and plan
And is determined on taking that first step- and believes he can!

Not just belief in self- that he can endure the fall
But also belief in others – that they’ll imitate his fall
Oh fool, he thinks that everyone, is a fool just like him
He’s so na├»ve he thinks it glorious, to get hurt, on whim,
That his disgrace as he falls, and eventually fails, is alright
People will be inspired by his fall- he won’t stay awake at night
And be tormented by his failures- he’ll put the jeers aside
He’ll deafen his ears to the mockery, and jest will go by the side
When he rides his horse, he’ll be a proud knight exemplar,
Not downcast eyes or a spirit, that is broken or tempered
Oh fool, he believes in more than is probably true-
He thinks by the end he’ll still be foolish and a novice
And be insensitive to all the innuendos, no regrets, no rue,
And no need to hide- but wont the journey makes him wise?

The greatest challenge that our beloved Fool faces
Is not that first step, nor last, nor the million stages
That comprise his journey- the journey is least on his mind
What haunts him – is not a matter of degree, but that of kind
Not how much the journey will wear and tear his soul
But whether he’ll be the same person- the self, the whole
After the quest ends, will he still be a fool
Feeling no resentment, on being used as a tool
To bring the grail to the king, to end the war,
He by his own will fought, so why these scar
Should haunt him at the end- but the one haunted has changed
He’s wizened by the war and no longer easily played
By emotions of Love to get involved in what’s not true
Of how he’ll handle his new found wisdom he has no clue.

He prefers to delude himself that he’ll not be changed by the quest
To win he’ll not need to learn the ways and vile of men, is a lie,
It’s not Victory or defeat per se- it’s the nature of the quest
Whether you win, you lose, or it ends in a tie,
By participating in it, you made a Faustian deal,
In the end you lose your soul- the wounds won’t heal.
It’s not what you are at the beginning; it’s what you’ll be at the end
That is worth contemplating-and should make your hairs stand
Whether it’s a future you agree to- becoming wise and resentful
Or whether you continue living as of now- ignorant and cheerful
Is a choice that the Fool has to make- but can he foresee?
If he had the vision would we call him a fool?
He is eager to take the first step is all we can see
Either consciously or not, he is ready to be a tool.

A tool that has a use only as far as the quests last
And as soon as they end, we can leave him with his past
Let him ruminate on a life, spent fallow and waste
 He should have known otherwise- should have cultivated taste
And not got involved in quests out of foolishness or haste
About his mental sanity and peace we can only speculate
And hope that his sense of sacrifice lets him bear the failures wounds
Not just shame, but feelings of sacrifice, is the wisdom’s boon.
As a fool he never thought he was sacrificing, nor was deterred by shame
And so he took those first steps and the next ones, and the ones that were lame
But let’s thank wisdom that with it comes packing –
 An ego feeling of having sacrificed
That justifies your living- though the desire is lacking
A shameful existence- empty and devoid.